Dark

Its been very, very dark around here lately. And I don't really mean the weather. I've gone back into that place that is so hard to get out of. Where all you see is darkness, and tiredness and pain. I had four migraines last week!
But its not really the physical pain that gets me - its the huge lack of motivation to get out of this funk that really gets me down. I KNOW all the right things to be doing, that's the crazy part. I know what would get me back on the right track but can't seem to find any desire to go there.

Not a big fan...

... of making the same mistake again and again. Tired of realizing I've gone the wrong direction again, after its too late.

On the other hand, I changed my last name this week! It was a big relief to get over that first hurdle. But now comes the changing with all the places I need to change it with - drivers license, SS, bank, etc.

Only about a month now before I become an aunt! Last weekend we showered Stefanie and Jimmy with all kinds of pink goodies. Seems like just yesterday I was finding out that Stef was pregnant and now Hannah's almost here!

Feeling slightly accomplished!

Its 9:45 P.M. and this is the first I've been on my computer all evening! After work I went straight to the UPS store to get my name change document notarized and then on to The Container Store and Bed, Bath & Beyond. Got me an under-the-sink bathroom organizer, a wicker basket for the bathroom, a couple of cabinet organizers and a spice organizer. Oh, and a "reminder center" - a neat little place to hang my keys, jot notes and leave things to remind myself on the way out the door in the morning. I even spent about an hour shredding old papers that I don't need anymore. It feels good to start the process of clearing out clutter! I'm tired (finally a good tired!).
Ideally I'd like to continue what I've started and get completely organized - but I can't look at it that way or it will seem too overwhelming and I'll give up. ha! (baby steps I guess)