I was in what I thought was a beautiful relationship with an amazing man. I really should have taken more time to get to know him (and vice versa) before we began talking about marriage and family and future. I would urge any single person to be extremely cautious with meeting someone new. If they begin talking about marriage and children in the first week, that is a problem.
I learned many hard lessons from this situation. Mostly I've learned that the only person I can put my complete trust in is God and God alone. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
He is molding me right now to be a different woman. I woman confident in my identity with Him.
Its a painful lesson to learn but it needed to be learned. I am pouring myself into Christ and learning more about Him and His ways. I can no longer go back to the old ways, my old habits, my old hangups. I've allowed Satan to convince me that I was worth less than I am and to not speak up for myself when I know something is wrong. My identity is in Christ and He says I am worth it. He loves me so much. God is in control of the situation and is preparing a brighter future for me!
