Saturday, December 14, 2013

December 2013

I just had to update on my weight loss! I officially started my latest journey in June of this year. I've lost a total of 36 pounds since then. My highest weight got up to a whopping 221.6 pounds! I am so glad to have that behind me and to know that I can do this and will continue to do it! The fact that I've actually lost a little bit of weight in December is huge, right?! I need to get back to studying (appraisal courses!) but I plan on updating more soon..... :)

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Its been another 8-9 months since my last post. I came back with the intention of developing this into more of a weight loss/health/misc blog. If I'm going to have any success losing the weight I really need to lose, I'm going to have to be honest about everything. At this point I'm guessing I don't have any readers but that's not the point - at least not right now. Right now its about seriously getting some of this weight off. I weighed myself this morning and the scale showed 208 pounds. That surprisingly is not my highest weight. 210 is. :) My current BMI is 36.8 which puts me well into the "obesity" range. Obviously I am putting myself at greater risk for heart disease and other problems. I know this and yet my motivation to change this has been extremely low. I could blame a lot of things on my medication roller-coaster but I'm tired of doing that. I'm tired of always being the heavy, unhappy woman wherever I go. But I know this is more about action than words. My first step has been adding cardio to my day. Its only been a couple of days so far but I will keep going. I've started using my elliptical/bike in the morning and I'm finding it better to focus on doing that instead of waiting until after work. Just need to go at least 30 minutes in the morning. It helps to have something to watch on TV while I exercise. Next I will make a realistic shopping list full of low-calorie items and including lots of fruits and some vegetables. Don't want to try to hard at first and get burnt out quickly. But I do want to start small with some easy, cheap recipes that are tasty. Admittedly I've been a bit of a fast-food junkie lately with McDonald's being my go-to when I've felt any sort of hunger pang or even restlessness (medication related). So I know it will be difficult to transition to better eating habits again. I've done it before so I know I can. Its just a matter of re-training my brain.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

How could I NOT have ADD?

I can't believe I am 32 years old and really just starting to realize that I am most likely ADD and I really need to get an official diagnosis for it so I can start to live my life in a somewhat normal way.
I really think the fact that I haven't been diagnosed is probably because I keep forgetting to mention things that would get me in the right direction. I've been depressed for so long that its become a way of life and yes, I suppose I have questioned why its never really gone away but never got around to deciding what is really going on.
I CAN NOT concentrate. I am so distractible. I'm so disorganized. I leave food out in my kitchen and discover it the next day, spoiled. I've collected bettas almost like crazy (I came to a point though when i realized I was buying so many and started trying to discipline myself so I currently *only* have 17 of them!) I've had this blog up for years but I've probably made 3-4 real posts (not just articles or photos from time to time). Prior to my current job, the longest I had been at a job was less than 2 years. I'm fortunate to be where I am now - I try so hard and have had some success but that has gone away at times but my bosses still love me and support me. But I still have yet to reach the 3 year mark. I am in a constant state of what some call "fog" but I feel like its more of a chaos. My poor eyesight isn't helping things much in that department either. I make terrible food choices and overeat a lot. I have piles of things - paper, bills, mail, laundry, dishes etc - all over my apartment. I tend to only get things taken care of when i've put it off too long and its getting obvious. I had my power cut off this week not because I don't have money, but because I forgot to pay the bill and assumed I was on auto-pay. My longest relationship was my marriage that lasted just over two years. Guess who did the leaving?