Autumn's Melody

Its been another 8-9 months since my last post. I came back with the intention of developing this into more of a weight loss/health/misc blog. If I'm going to have any success losing the weight I really need to lose, I'm going to have to be honest about everything. At this point I'm guessing I don't have any readers but that's not the point - at least not right now. Right now its about seriously getting some of this weight off. I weighed myself this morning and the scale showed 208 pounds. That surprisingly is not my highest weight. 210 is. :) My current BMI is 36.8 which puts me well into the "obesity" range. Obviously I am putting myself at greater risk for heart disease and other problems. I know this and yet my motivation to change this has been extremely low. I could blame a lot of things on my medication roller-coaster but I'm tired of doing that. I'm tired of always being the heavy, unhappy woman wherever I go. But I know this is more about action than words. My first step has been adding cardio to my day. Its only been a couple of days so far but I will keep going. I've started using my elliptical/bike in the morning and I'm finding it better to focus on doing that instead of waiting until after work. Just need to go at least 30 minutes in the morning. It helps to have something to watch on TV while I exercise. Next I will make a realistic shopping list full of low-calorie items and including lots of fruits and some vegetables. Don't want to try to hard at first and get burnt out quickly. But I do want to start small with some easy, cheap recipes that are tasty. Admittedly I've been a bit of a fast-food junkie lately with McDonald's being my go-to when I've felt any sort of hunger pang or even restlessness (medication related). So I know it will be difficult to transition to better eating habits again. I've done it before so I know I can. Its just a matter of re-training my brain.