tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25039315057106691202024-03-05T05:30:24.185-06:00Autumn's MelodyMelodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.comBlogger47125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-77370959861567539302013-12-14T23:32:00.000-06:002013-12-15T00:32:51.639-06:00December 2013I just had to update on my weight loss! I officially started my latest journey in June of this year. I've lost a total of 36 pounds since then. My highest weight got up to a whopping 221.6 pounds! I am so glad to have that behind me and to know that I can do this and will continue to do it! The fact that I've actually lost a little bit of weight in December is huge, right?!
I need to get back to studying (appraisal courses!) but I plan on updating more soon..... :) Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-70214216162075137122012-09-06T12:57:00.000-05:002012-09-06T12:57:25.638-05:00Its been another 8-9 months since my last post. I came back with the intention of developing this into more of a weight loss/health/misc blog. If I'm going to have any success losing the weight I really need to lose, I'm going to have to be honest about everything. At this point I'm guessing I don't have any readers but that's not the point - at least not right now.
Right now its about seriously getting some of this weight off. I weighed myself this morning and the scale showed 208 pounds. That surprisingly is not my highest weight. 210 is. :)
My current BMI is 36.8 which puts me well into the "obesity" range. Obviously I am putting myself at greater risk for heart disease and other problems. I know this and yet my motivation to change this has been extremely low. I could blame a lot of things on my medication roller-coaster but I'm tired of doing that. I'm tired of always being the heavy, unhappy woman wherever I go.
But I know this is more about action than words. My first step has been adding cardio to my day. Its only been a couple of days so far but I will keep going. I've started using my elliptical/bike in the morning and I'm finding it better to focus on doing that instead of waiting until after work. Just need to go at least 30 minutes in the morning. It helps to have something to watch on TV while I exercise. Next I will make a realistic shopping list full of low-calorie items and including lots of fruits and some vegetables. Don't want to try to hard at first and get burnt out quickly. But I do want to start small with some easy, cheap recipes that are tasty. Admittedly I've been a bit of a fast-food junkie lately with McDonald's being my go-to when I've felt any sort of hunger pang or even restlessness (medication related). So I know it will be difficult to transition to better eating habits again. I've done it before so I know I can. Its just a matter of re-training my brain.
Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0800 State Highway 121, Lewisville, TX 75067, USA32.993115178187708 -96.96945190429687532.939858678187704 -97.048415904296874 33.046371678187711 -96.890487904296876tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-70407868098187614502012-01-25T13:17:00.000-06:002012-01-25T13:17:15.437-06:00How could I NOT have ADD?I can't believe I am 32 years old and really just starting to realize that I am most likely ADD and I really need to get an official diagnosis for it so I can start to live my life in a somewhat normal way. <br />
I really think the fact that I haven't been diagnosed is probably because I keep forgetting to mention things that would get me in the right direction. I've been depressed for so long that its become a way of life and yes, I suppose I have questioned why its never really gone away but never got around to deciding what is really going on.<br />
I CAN NOT concentrate. I am so distractible. I'm so disorganized. I leave food out in my kitchen and discover it the next day, spoiled. I've collected bettas almost like crazy (I came to a point though when i realized I was buying so many and started trying to discipline myself so I currently *only* have 17 of them!) I've had this blog up for years but I've probably made 3-4 real posts (not just articles or photos from time to time). Prior to my current job, the longest I had been at a job was less than 2 years. I'm fortunate to be where I am now - I try so hard and have had some success but that has gone away at times but my bosses still love me and support me. But I still have yet to reach the 3 year mark. I am in a constant state of what some call "fog" but I feel like its more of a chaos. My poor eyesight isn't helping things much in that department either. I make terrible food choices and overeat a lot. I have piles of things - paper, bills, mail, laundry, dishes etc - all over my apartment. I tend to only get things taken care of when i've put it off too long and its getting obvious. I had my power cut off this week not because I don't have money, but because I forgot to pay the bill and assumed I was on auto-pay. My longest relationship was my marriage that lasted just over two years. Guess who did the leaving?Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-87942299981113947122011-12-02T12:16:00.000-06:002011-12-02T12:16:39.961-06:00Hem Jeans The Easy Way<a href="http://www.sewcraftymeg.com/2009/05/hem-jeans-the-easy-way/">Hem Jeans The Easy Way</a>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-56518754080248527992011-07-11T23:02:00.000-05:002011-07-11T23:02:22.050-05:00Update and photosHello world! I haven't felt much like "talking" lately but I thought I would come make a post, maybe put up a few pictures from my recent vacation to San Francisco. <br />
I did recently move to Coppell and I love the new place. Still getting settled in and finishing up at the old place. Still gainfully employed and even work from home once in awhile. I recently began the Couch-to-5K program. I've only done 1 day so far but its a start. I'm a little concerned about my feet and shins - I'm going to go get a professional fitting. I really don't want to stop because of pain - AGAIN!!<br />
I visited a church on Sunday, Valley Ranch Baptist Church. I enjoyed it and plan to go back early next week to participate in the bible study before worship service. <br />
Here are a few pictures I took in San Francisco and have used a filter from <a href="http://instagr.am/">instagr.am</a><br><br><br />
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***MORE PHOTOS TO COME***Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-76619295205202046372011-04-26T22:14:00.001-05:002011-04-27T19:14:27.006-05:00Completely ignore the previous entryI was in what I thought was a beautiful relationship with an amazing man. I really should have taken more time to get to know him (and vice versa) before we began talking about marriage and family and future. I would urge any single person to be extremely cautious with meeting someone new. If they begin talking about marriage and children in the first week, that is a problem.<br />
I learned many hard lessons from this situation. Mostly I've learned that the only person I can put my complete trust in is God and God alone. He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. <br />
He is molding me right now to be a different woman. I woman confident in my identity with Him. <br />
Its a painful lesson to learn but it needed to be learned. I am pouring myself into Christ and learning more about Him and His ways. I can no longer go back to the old ways, my old habits, my old hangups. I've allowed Satan to convince me that I was worth less than I am and to not speak up for myself when I know something is wrong. My identity is in Christ and He says I am worth it. He loves me so much. God is in control of the situation and is preparing a brighter future for me!<br />
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When I met Tim, everything changed. Things started making sense again. At first (and well still today) I couldn't get over how much he admired and cared for me. How much he found himself opening up to me and the more we talked, the more I wanted to know about him. Right off the bat I was attracted to the way he carried himself, along with his developing relationship with Christ, and his responsibility. It certainly doesn't hurt that he is super easy on the eyes! Over the last few weeks I have gotten to know him and truly believe that God has answered my prayers and shown me this man. I have never met anyone like him. He continues to amaze me each day. I see such inner (and outer) strength and a desire to conform to God's will. He sees me for the woman that I am and loves what he sees. For so long I felt that there was someone out there that would truly love me for me, with all my quirkiness and the heart that I have for God and people. <br />
I feel truly blessed to have had the opportunity to meet such a wonderful man. I admit I've let my insecurities take over at times. I've thought that this has to be too good to be true. I've allowed the occasional negative thought to creep in - that he is so much more attractive and put together than I deserve. But I know those are just negative thoughts from the past that I've allowed to continue to get the best of me. I know I deserve the best! <br />
I could go on - and I will go on - but want to end this posting for now. I feel God's blessings all around me and He deserves my praise<br />
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<iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/OoV7gds4pP0?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-9096265678633762032011-01-26T05:45:00.000-06:002011-01-26T05:45:21.104-06:00The Black Keys- Tighten up (lyrics)<iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/J1H2_VTGtk0?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-28169950852443219082011-01-22T11:16:00.013-06:002011-01-22T13:30:41.212-06:00Heartbroken<iframe width="425" height="344" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/zN3WCja5QdY?fs=1" frameborder="0" allowFullScreen=""></iframe><br />
This song by Staind really seems to speak how I feel now regarding someone who I care for so much, but cannot imagine him in my life the way I did before.<br />
Disappointed doesn't begin to describe how I feel about this situation.<br />
I really thought that he would one day make a great husband and father and even spiritual leader. I really don't want to "bash" him so to speak but after the way I heard him talk (yell) at his dad last night while we were talking on the phone, I can't look at him in the same light. <br />
He and I were having a kind of emotional conversation and things had finally gotten positive and I was talking to him and he interrupts me, tells me to hold on and suddenly i hear "I'M ON THE DAMN PHONE DAD!!!" he was saying more but can't remember because I hung up as fast as I could. In that moment my heart sank to my feet knowing how disrespectful he is to his parents and their messed up living situation - just made me sick. There's no future in someone like that, at least not for me.<br />
I just think its amazing to me how we met because he was looking for a Christian female friend online back in the spring of 2009 and everything that's happened since then. It makes no sense to me. <br />
Its extremely difficult for me as a 31 year old woman to know I'm still at square one relationally. I regret my marriage and subsequent divorce all those years ago. It set me soooo far back and I can't seem to ever make any progress. The number of strong (single) Christian men in this world seem to be dwindling (they're married to their strong Christian wives, having beautiful children and teaching them Jesus). There seem to be an abundance of immature wanderers with no direction.<br />
I trust that God has a plan for me so I keep that in mind when I feel down and lonely about my current situation. I thank God for taking care of my broken heart and showing me that life is better than dwelling on men that don't really care about me or about life with Him.Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-21075962456259644512011-01-21T21:44:00.000-06:002011-01-21T21:44:22.613-06:00Really Really Really ready...... for the torture in my brains to go away. I think this has been the 2nd straight solid week now of continuous brain zaps. At this point, it feels like they will never go away. I was really hoping that they'd become less frequent by the end of the week. Work was good one day this week but the other 3 were stressful and full of brain zaps. I've been sitting with a new hire for the past 2 days straight. She's the new onsite for our other client. But unfortunately, she's the 2nd attempt. The first one was great! She was real nice and we got along pretty good. BUT she managed to fail her drug screen - figures. Turns out she was with friends within the last few weeks and smoked a joint. So my boss quickly lines up new interviews and hired a new person within 1 day and had her sitting with me the next. The new one is very different - older, mother-like. It wasn't long before she was trying to help me do my job. I drove us to get our drug screens done for the other client today and I felt like the worst driver with her over there freaking out and telling me which lane to be in. By the end of the day today, I had pretty much checked out mentally. Having someone sit by you and watch you work and you having to talk to them and you're trying to explain what you're doing is pretty exhausting. <br />
I found myself thinking all the way home that it was this kind of day that makes me really wish I wasn't single and coming home to a cat. A massage and great conversation would have been wonderful. <br />
The other main side effect of withdrawing from the Zoloft, besides zaps and irritability - is the extreme emotions. EVERYTHING is making me cry. Its not a depressed cry - just all these emotions I'm not used to feeling about EVERYTHING. I'm crying when I feel happy about something, when I see a commercial or something on TV, a song on the radio. I'm surprised I've made it through the workdays without crying.<br />
My verse of the week has to be Psalm 54:2 "O God, hear my prayer; give ear to the words of my mouth." (ESV)Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-48440475133617404922011-01-13T19:33:00.003-06:002011-01-13T19:39:22.745-06:00My last couple of weeksJust a brief update of my last couple of weeks. I have been tapering off of the Zoloft. I am into my 3rd week doing so and I am following my doctor's instructions. But I'm very aware that its too fast of a taper. My first couple of weeks weren't too bad but into my 3rd week, things have picked up in the symptoms department.<br />
Below is the general symptoms reported from people who have tapered off of or quit Zoloft (and other psychiatric drugs). I can attest to several of them but my biggest complaint is what they call paresthesia. However I would describe it differently than tingling. I feel like I'm being brain-shocked every 30 seconds or less. I've experienced this before, but this is the most I have felt in a long time. I'm just praying right now for some relief from this feeling. I've decided to bold the ones that are affecting me the most.More later.<br />
Psychiatric<br />
anxiety, <b><i>crying spells</i></b>, insomnia, irritability, agitation, mood lability, <b><i>vivid or bizarre dreams</i></b>, <b><i>difficulty with concentration</i></b> and memory. <br />
Neurologic:<br />
<b><i>dizziness, lightheadedness, headache, paresthesia (electric shock-like tingling), vertigo</i></b> <br />
Motor:<br />
dystonia (gait instability), tremor <br />
Gastrointestinal:<br />
nausea, vomiting, diarrhea <br />
Somatic:<br />
<b><i>chills</i></b>, fatigue, lethargy, myalgias, rhinorrhea, sweatingMelodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-66691142970511289552010-12-20T21:55:00.000-06:002010-12-20T22:07:58.417-06:00Noise!Ok the noise coming from the neighbor above me is going to drive me insane. I'm tired of the constant banging and stomping around. When he/they drop the toilet lid its so loud I jump out of my skin!<br />The thought of the hassle of moving is helping me keep my sanity and I plan on signing a short-term lease so that I have plenty of time to find a great place to live where I'll be happy. Aside from the noise from upstairs and from outside, the place really isn't that bad, especially for the money. <br />But I'm so tired of wearing earplugs all the time. Sometimes I just listen to music and I tune everything out, but I can't sleep with music on!<br />Ok rant done.<br />I'm glad its Christmas week. Really looking forward to seeing my family - but honestly can't wait to see Hannah's little face again. She's already 2 weeks old!<br />Been praying about a certain ex-boyfriend of mine, asking God if he is who He has for me, if I made a mistake last year when we broke things off. God's answer seems to be no, at least for now, as I'm not hearing from him (ex) very much. It hurts a bit, but then I tell myself that I probably deserve it, after all I did break things off with him and hadn't spoken to him for over a year. <br />Still praying about what God has in store for me. I still feel as though most of my life is waiting to start. Kind of an uneasy feeling most of the time. I know I should be doing something - I feel like I could help in more ways than just financially. I should be praying for wisdom and strength!<br />I've had to admit to myself the last few days that while I was in Tulsa, welcoming Hannah to the world with her parents and everyone, those 3 days were the best I've had in so very long. I suppose one of those mountain-top experiences. I felt happy and normal for the first time in years - decades. Suddenly I wanted that for myself so very much. A family of my own. Part of me feels that is entirely possible - anything is possible with God! But another part of me wants to admit that maybe I'm not cut out to be a mom - maybe not even a wife.Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-41252019938385799302010-12-14T20:06:00.000-06:002010-12-14T20:08:07.161-06:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQfz3hcCAMZb2sX6bQZ5lRmoep823JTGE8r2nioNmAsBFRr6iE3gUEN8yQrn5TxDAfbTV6JnF0Tre7lWVn0mPYt3Tr-PpB12u9kWqrK3uCIOV-X1lcqm-I1ap1YbVkPEPA0588XtrTyWz8/s1600/148850_473009073393_514093393_5593958_6924863_n.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 210px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQfz3hcCAMZb2sX6bQZ5lRmoep823JTGE8r2nioNmAsBFRr6iE3gUEN8yQrn5TxDAfbTV6JnF0Tre7lWVn0mPYt3Tr-PpB12u9kWqrK3uCIOV-X1lcqm-I1ap1YbVkPEPA0588XtrTyWz8/s320/148850_473009073393_514093393_5593958_6924863_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5550725009633698546" /></a>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-57116211172607066892010-12-09T10:38:00.001-06:002010-12-09T10:39:26.523-06:00Babies change everything :)<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUkHS3EM8ZGMSef5hSnqbaSBzozaAS4FhCjswsSaT0xBiIzkdqqrhqJVuzL32Vou7VdX9Zd9x2Fwah6GL4cECEXdrDTJbebBQTFk-gxYxapIjkec5yFnaVhyphenhypheni3UUK6VjG2SF1fnBGyYdv_/s1600/New+Image.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 239px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUkHS3EM8ZGMSef5hSnqbaSBzozaAS4FhCjswsSaT0xBiIzkdqqrhqJVuzL32Vou7VdX9Zd9x2Fwah6GL4cECEXdrDTJbebBQTFk-gxYxapIjkec5yFnaVhyphenhypheni3UUK6VjG2SF1fnBGyYdv_/s320/New+Image.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5548722986835874946" /></a><br />My brand new niece, Hannah Elizabeth NanceMelodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-43812814275758114482010-11-07T18:31:00.000-06:002010-11-07T18:38:58.423-06:00DarkIts been very, very dark around here lately. And I don't really mean the weather. I've gone back into that place that is so hard to get out of. Where all you see is darkness, and tiredness and pain. I had four migraines last week!<br />But its not really the physical pain that gets me - its the huge lack of motivation to get out of this funk that really gets me down. I KNOW all the right things to be doing, that's the crazy part. I know what would get me back on the right track but can't seem to find any desire to go there.Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-56967544781243329562010-10-27T21:28:00.000-05:002010-10-27T21:32:13.680-05:00Not a big fan...... of making the same mistake again and again. Tired of realizing I've gone the wrong direction again, after its too late.<br /><br />On the other hand, I changed my last name this week! It was a big relief to get over that first hurdle. But now comes the changing with all the places I need to change it with - drivers license, SS, bank, etc.<br /><br />Only about a month now before I become an aunt! Last weekend we showered Stefanie and Jimmy with all kinds of pink goodies. Seems like just yesterday I was finding out that Stef was pregnant and now Hannah's almost here!Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-67699843824759881232010-10-18T21:45:00.001-05:002010-10-18T21:51:36.331-05:00Feeling slightly accomplished!Its 9:45 P.M. and this is the first I've been on my computer all evening! After work I went straight to the UPS store to get my name change document notarized and then on to The Container Store and Bed, Bath & Beyond. Got me an under-the-sink bathroom organizer, a wicker basket for the bathroom, a couple of cabinet organizers and a spice organizer. Oh, and a "reminder center" - a neat little place to hang my keys, jot notes and leave things to remind myself on the way out the door in the morning. I even spent about an hour shredding old papers that I don't need anymore. It feels good to start the process of clearing out clutter! I'm tired (finally a good tired!).<br />Ideally I'd like to continue what I've started and get completely organized - but I can't look at it that way or it will seem too overwhelming and I'll give up. ha! (baby steps I guess)Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-27249809309623116102010-10-18T16:28:00.000-05:002010-10-18T16:29:51.624-05:00Want to apologizeI'm one of the many under-informed voters that put Obama in office 2 years ago and I apologize. Please forgive me. I promise not to do that ever again!Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-16832721409808803162010-10-18T16:26:00.000-05:002010-10-18T16:26:21.042-05:00Americans drowning in prescription drugs<a href="http://www.naturalnews.com/029664_prescription_drugs_Americans.html">Americans drowning in prescription drugs</a>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-28757358618065167252010-10-17T19:54:00.000-05:002010-10-17T20:09:21.913-05:00Continuing the battleIdeally I would like to find an alternative health-care practitioner that would help me get off the prescription medications and to battle the depression in a real way. In the way that I believe is the only way I'll have true and lasting success. I find myself getting so upset over the way the health-care system is today. I've become accustomed to the doctor visits where I go in for 10-15 minutes and she writes me a prescription. But yet I still battle every day, every month, every year with sometimes debilitating depression and anxiety. At one point I was almost in a "give-up" stage. Just thought that my brain was never going to let me live a normal life. To one day meet the man God created for me and to have children. I gave up on that - decided it wasn't for me because of the depression. Thought I would be on anti-depressants the rest of my life. <br />I've idealized suicide a lot over the past 10 or so years, even recently. <br /><br />But I'm finally at the place where I decided I haven't given up. Its difficult because I let myself dwell on the negatives in this world. There is so much evil that it makes me sick. There are a lot of people giving up on life. But I refuse to do that any more. I want to help other people get out of themselves, the way I'm fighting to get out of myself. I want to make a positive difference on someones life.<br /><br />Lord, I pray right now for courage to take the next steps. Please give me Your wisdom. Where do you want me to start?Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-14750205446642976422010-10-15T23:02:00.000-05:002010-10-15T23:14:27.296-05:00Weekend goalsClean & organize one area at a time. I would really like to finish what I started when I moved in and do some sort of decorating. I have this Marilyn Monroe wall applique that I'm afraid to attempt to put up, out of fear of screwing it up somehow. Now that I'm 95% certain that I plan on renewing the lease at my apartment (that 5% could come into play once I get the notice of how much they want to raise my rent), I would like to make the place look welcoming. A place that I wouldn't mind having others over to see. Because right now its in a state of C.H.A.O.S. (Can't Have Anyone Over Syndrome)! I got that from an organizing book long ago. I think it got misplaced when I was going through the divorce. Which reminds me, I have now undertook the task of legally changing my name back to my maiden name. Its only been 3 1/2 years! It is not that I feel any sort of disdain for my ex's last name. I just feel it would be a solidification of starting over fresh. Knowing that God has forgiven me and does not want for me to dwell on my mistakes in the past and to focus on what he has for me now and in the future. Its strange, but I didn't mind so much right after the divorce, but the more time goes on, the more I feel it is right to have the same last name as my family again!<br />Right now I'm praying for focus over the weekend. I will use my awesome Vitamin R gadget on my computer and complete mini-tasks and begin the process of organizing and purging things from my apartment. Life could be a lot simpler!Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-44494360248281565822010-10-14T21:22:00.001-05:002010-10-14T21:22:51.112-05:00Mobile bloggin testMelodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-90831812400151560832010-10-14T21:08:00.000-05:002010-10-14T21:08:05.888-05:00Weight Loss Tips for ADHD Adults: Exercise and Diet | ADDitude - Attention Deficit Information & Resources<a href="http://www.additudemag.com/adhd/article/5700.html">Weight Loss Tips for ADHD Adults: Exercise and Diet | ADDitude - Attention Deficit Information & Resources</a>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-37489658283483926152010-10-14T21:02:00.001-05:002010-10-14T21:12:18.830-05:00My fish oil came today :)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJqKaNcRZlllE-zyTWostalHfeoREFSrrIpbS5JLs-QI3Dr98Z6qpg7juiXt9KmFbXVgMKLWvPVcFlFSL8y4EP9cNrdFoGtQ4jqbZW4EtP5dSGxcC66kw_oC0lvt5WPPfafq-T3DyB9xPi/s1600/68398_449390303393_514093393_5250675_3171580_n.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiJqKaNcRZlllE-zyTWostalHfeoREFSrrIpbS5JLs-QI3Dr98Z6qpg7juiXt9KmFbXVgMKLWvPVcFlFSL8y4EP9cNrdFoGtQ4jqbZW4EtP5dSGxcC66kw_oC0lvt5WPPfafq-T3DyB9xPi/s320/68398_449390303393_514093393_5250675_3171580_n.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5528087941144063266" /></a>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2503931505710669120.post-33905592900078857052010-10-14T21:02:00.000-05:002010-10-14T21:02:07.235-05:00Alternative ADHD Treatment: How Fish Oil Can Help Your ADHD Symptoms | ADDitude - Attention Deficit Information & Resources<a href="http://www.additudemag.com/adhd/article/1684.html">Alternative ADHD Treatment: How Fish Oil Can Help Your ADHD Symptoms | ADDitude - Attention Deficit Information & Resources</a>Melodyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16777335622822876965noreply@blogger.com0