Noise!

Ok the noise coming from the neighbor above me is going to drive me insane. I'm tired of the constant banging and stomping around. When he/they drop the toilet lid its so loud I jump out of my skin!
The thought of the hassle of moving is helping me keep my sanity and I plan on signing a short-term lease so that I have plenty of time to find a great place to live where I'll be happy. Aside from the noise from upstairs and from outside, the place really isn't that bad, especially for the money.
But I'm so tired of wearing earplugs all the time. Sometimes I just listen to music and I tune everything out, but I can't sleep with music on!
Ok rant done.
I'm glad its Christmas week. Really looking forward to seeing my family - but honestly can't wait to see Hannah's little face again. She's already 2 weeks old!
Been praying about a certain ex-boyfriend of mine, asking God if he is who He has for me, if I made a mistake last year when we broke things off. God's answer seems to be no, at least for now, as I'm not hearing from him (ex) very much. It hurts a bit, but then I tell myself that I probably deserve it, after all I did break things off with him and hadn't spoken to him for over a year.
Still praying about what God has in store for me. I still feel as though most of my life is waiting to start. Kind of an uneasy feeling most of the time. I know I should be doing something - I feel like I could help in more ways than just financially. I should be praying for wisdom and strength!
I've had to admit to myself the last few days that while I was in Tulsa, welcoming Hannah to the world with her parents and everyone, those 3 days were the best I've had in so very long. I suppose one of those mountain-top experiences. I felt happy and normal for the first time in years - decades. Suddenly I wanted that for myself so very much. A family of my own. Part of me feels that is entirely possible - anything is possible with God! But another part of me wants to admit that maybe I'm not cut out to be a mom - maybe not even a wife.

Babies change everything :)

My brand new niece, Hannah Elizabeth Nance