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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

So many thoughts running through my head. I'm feeling rejection from Eric now. This is crazy. I'm not even sure I like him - he's not giving me any reasons to. I regret the way things happened yesterday. It was so awkward. Now I feel like I officially screwed things up with him, but I still haven't figured out if I care or not.
Mentally I am in no shape to be with anyone. I wonder if I've ever been. I wonder if I am meant to be alone. Every time I am with someone, I do something to mess it up or I don't like something(s) about them and destroy it.
Maybe I'm meant to be tortured all my life.
Instead of dwell on regrets - Better choices for tomorrow